first and foremost… i miss blogging!!!  haha.  okay, now that i’ve gotten that out….

so i was sitting at mars, updating facebook and twitter, listening to some chill music, drinking my tea, avoiding my work, and thinking i was pretty cool.  and then i was sad.  out of nowhere!  it was weird.  i tried to shake it but for about 45 minutes i just sat and couldn’t quite understand.  i had to move.  so i left my stuff with ashley, and took off.  and i walked.  and prayed.

“Jesus… what’s going on??  where are you??  what do you want??  why am i out in the humidity walking around?? what the heck!!”

i couldn’t clear my mind enough to think or pray much after that.  so i walked through the park and a tiny little child pointed at me on the swing and said something about me being white.  i was confused, but then i waved.  the 3ish year old boy laughed and laughed.  it made me giggle.

as i went passed the basketball court 2 guys came up by me and tried to hit on me. “hey G.  whats your name?  don’t i know you?  where you goin?  come on babe, talk to me.  come on back.  why you ignoring me?”  for a second i thought about being angry.  but instead i laughed.  i gave them a little backwards wave and they continued saying something.  i couldn’t hear because i was giggling to myself.

then as i headed back towards mars, i passed an older man sitting on his porch.  he waved and smiled at me so i smiled wide and waved back and said hello.  he started speaking spanish to me!  and guess what…. i knew how to respond!!!  i mean, i took 4 years of spanish.  that should be normal.  but i am NOT good at it at all.  but we had a nice little conversation.  very short.  but man, he was pumped.

then i just knew.  Jesus was like, “hey, i love you.  you know that.  it never changes.  now do what i would do and interact with people!”  i’m not really sure what that means, or if it even makes sense to anyone but me.  but i’ve been around a lot of people talking about the verse “we love because He first loved us” and it just makes sense.

so as i spend my summer trying to figure out where my life goes after Drake, i’m super thankful for these random moments.  especially because they’re way too random to actually make sense without Jesus.

also, i think He wants to teach me about having no judgement/assumptions about people.  but that is a work in progress for sure…..